here's why bob dylan is so amazing.

Come mothers and fathers
Throughout the land
And don't criticize
What you can't understand
Your sons and your daughters
Are beyond your command
Your old road is
Rapidly agin'.
Please get out of the new one
If you can't lend your hand
For the times they are a-changin'.

a final link for jenn... http://www.livejournal.com/~melojyellow/ 

alright i'm getting into bob dylan now. my lovely friend jessica from class has made me a cd of mostly old stuff and i've only gotten thru 6 songs but they're all fantastic, they all feel like a wes anderson movie. "times they are a-changin" gives me chills. and of course "like a rolling stone", "hey mr. tamberine man" and "it's not me, babe".. soo good. his voice doesn't sound nearly so weird as they tell you it sounds. maybe it gets weirder later.

still singing "you're the one for me fatty.."

i've started my script and it's flowing like a river and it feels pretty good and i'm really happy. it's funny and there's gay sex and hopefully the gay best friend won't overshadow the main girl but if he does that wouldn't be the worst thing ever.. he's fabulous. so yeay for writing.

if anyone in the world wants to go dancing with me and mine, we go almost every thursday night to independent bar and it's really fun and you should join us. so call me.

do you realize we'll know if we have a new president or not in like two and a half weeks? jesus

the greatest actors around today seem to be gary oldman, patricia clarkson, samantha morton, and jeffrey wright. they dazzle me. i just rewatched Basquiat, a high school benicio favorite with both gary and jeffrey, but jeffrey plays jean michel basquiat and he's phenomenal, as he is in angels in america where he plays three different roles.. i have enormous respect for him. i feel like he's an "important" actor. gary is the chameleon of chameleons. sam is out now in code 46 with tim robbins that looks really interesting (directed by michael winterbottom who did 24 hour party people which was good and a new movie nine songs where the actors actually had sex which is interesting but apparently doesn't make a great movie according to theatre goers). patricia, with the "voice like a dirty martini" as magazines like to say, is amazing in everything but was most recently nominated for an oscar for pieces of april which i rewatched thursday night, great great movie. little katie holmes needs to pick more good movies like that. everytime i try to think of her name all i can think of is kate hudson and i have to fight kate off before i can get anywhere near katie.

i got jenn's cd friday, yeay! jenn, so sorry i couldn't dance, i was beat. we'll do it some time for sure. i'm soo very glad you gave me "loretta young silks" - i've been trying to download that song since i started downloading qaf music.. that's a while now. i really like it. now i wanna rewatch that scene. i'm telling you, go to that queer eyes link on my lj and download "slip" from under "videos" - i was like, "a lit song? child, please." but it's so perfect for the montage and actually very moving.. lovely and heartbreaking. you feel so bad for brian afterwards. and morissey!! oh my he's my gay daddy now too. i pranced around blockbuster singing "you're the one for me.. FAtty!" all friday night. i love how he says "fatty", so british. it makes the way we say it sound crude. gotta be honest, tho, not too crazy about cursive or even matthew good.. which surprised me because i so love his song "weapon", but maybe that's just because i've had a great voyeuristic blowjob to it. dunno dunno. (does anyone know that when i say that i'm channeling ewan in trainspotting when renton and spike are pondering whether to run away with the money at the bar?) and the only postal service song i've liked so far is "from such great heights" but that's probably only because i already liked the iron and wine remake that's in garden state so much. or switch that. dunno who made it first. guess who i'm downloading right now? interpol. yes. i still don't know if it's them i like.. i danced to this great song thursday night and asked a boy next to me who it was and he thought i was them so who knows.. i'm getting mascara, i hope i like it or i probably won't be bothered to get anything else. i'm heading back towards the rapture too. i need a little screaming back in my life. who else who else... electric 6 ("danger! high voltage!" and "gay bar"), the sounds, scissor sisters, junior senior... and i'm still head crushingly in love with the yeah yeah yeahs, who lived up to their reputation completely unlike franz ferdinand or the killers... to be fair tho i haven't downloaded anything other than the single for the killers, i'm just not impressed enough. i'm a fickle sort.

still haven't started script. 20 pages due in 10 days. it's the biggest thing ever but i keep convincing myself more and more that i'm going to create something good, something i can be proud of. the foggy general ideas are dancing around up there, i just have to pull them down and shake them into something concrete that won't fall thru my fingers like sand. i can do it. i believe in me. do you believe in me?

i'm fully prepared to brush off the good movie dry spell of late (which continues next week i fear) for the orgasmic rush of jude law movies shooting thru my body in two weeks time.. here they come. i am spread-eagled and ready. i heart huckabees looks fantastic and alfie is probably going to kill me.

the presidential debate was kind of tiring last night... too many of the same slogans. i didn't feel like there was as clear a winner this time even tho bush is obviously a rash childish obnoxious little twat who doesn't know when to take a seat. i like going to factcheck.org afterwards to see how much smoke they blew up our butts, cuz they always do. who cares. i've already voted. cheney and edwards was incredibly depressing.. a.) for brushing gay people under the rug and everyone just being sort of fine with that and b.) because edwards seemed like an idiot compared to cheney because cheney is ridiculously intelligent. i guffawed at how if he'd been president this whole time and bush didn't exist we would've all bought this iraq war bologne much more because everything just sounds smart and good and confident and right coming out of his mouth. and i was very confused because the democrat is usually the distant intellectual and the republican is usually the well-meaning man of the people with a southern accent. i love tho how both cheney and bush's best zingers from these last two debates ended up being completely false: cheney met edwards a couple times before and it's video documented; bush has part ownership in a timber company, see factcheck.org. lordy. it just sounds so good at the time! i wonder what kerry is thinking everytime he smiles good-naturedly at something bush is saying about how shitty kerry is.. he's so relaxed and amused by it, i want to know how his mind reads it. aside from typical politician lies and all that malarky, it's true, i like the guy, i think he's a good man and i don't think he'd screw shit up. jon stewart said it best in GQ:

If competitiveness is George W. Bush's defining characteristic, what's John Kerry's?
Ambition.
What's the difference?
Competitiveness is: I will beat you in thumb wrestling or the presidential election. Ambition is: I will be a great man. History will remember me.

frank, you're sloppy in love with him and i think that's adorable. only i think you're an idiot because you have a fuckin political blog and it's cold and starving and alone and you decided not to put it there. i saw like your whole family today in blockbuster. i need you to buy me a cheap car cd player with your employee discount and let me pay you back in anticipation of the countless blockbuster deals i will score for you in the future. my car stereo stopped playing tapes, it spits them out immediately, so that leaves me with little earpiece headphones in the car and that's just sad. it's time. i'm calling you about this soon when i get some damn money. tell me how much i could be looking at for a good yet cheap one. and me and jenn still want you to come with us to new york in mid december, even tho we may not need your dad's house to crash because jenn may be bringing an extra friend with some connections.. but we still want you to come and show us around and party. you and jenn are my only other politically active friends. you should talk. and try not to fall madly in love with her.

ok so just pushing enter posts these things now.. ok.. well i wasn't supposed to do two posts but here is an opportunity to make jenn laugh outloud with this lovely gale/jesus icon.. cracked me the fuck up. i wish i could read the smaller writing but i can't. ok. the debate. i was first caught offgaurd by how good bush was doing. i had too low expectations of him and when he slightly surpassed them i didn't know what to do and he seemed to be doing much better than i guess he actually was. he had that whole "i am one of you, one of the people" thing going on and kerry seemed too uptight and formal at first and i was freaking out. and then we all got comfortable and bush started having those ridiculous cut away looks and kerry started making a hell of a lot more sense and bush started getting defensive and pissed off and even THREATENED us! "and you better have a president that is willing to make these shitty mistakes, god help you if you don't!" wow! that was hilarious. so that makes me think the bush camp is desperate and that makes me feel good inside. i just rewatched fahrenheit 9/11 tonight and i'm all pumped. i'd really like to see that kerry documentary. i've been reading pieces of this GQ interview with him where he just sits and has a beer with this guy and talks about his family and good rock n roll music and meeting people on the road and it just makes me calm down and sigh and think, ok this is a good guy, i can put aside that he's filthy rich and he's not exactly fighting for gay rights at the moment, he's a decent human being, he's got a strong woman who excites him, turns him on, who is "sexy and saucy and challenging".. a "full woman. confident.. loves being a woman.. wears her womanhood. smart. has a sense of self." you know? laura bush seems like a sweetheart but these words i'm sure have never been passed about her. so anyway, i'm rambling about teresa, i understand, but dammit kerry's a smart guy and he's not going to fuck up. my absentee ballot has come and gone. i have voted. and my vote will count. thank god. speaking of god.. i watched the most amazing little documentary about gay orthodox jews the other night - the movie wasn't as spectacular as the special features with all this extra footage of rabbi interviews.. and it floored me, mainly about just how smart jews are.. did we know this? they make it their mission to always be challenging their faith and struggling and proving and learning and listening.. your average non-religious jew is almost always smarter than your average other human. look at the west wing for chrissake. so i'm listening to these rabbis speak and i'm aghast at how understanding and intelligent and just GOOD they are and i really want to start seeing one and have them give me life advice and make me into a better person, when i'm not drowning in gay sex, but i'm afraid that's off limits because i'm not jewish.. but it was just bizarre to, for the first time in a very long time, really see the necessity for some sort of religion in some people's lives and appreciate that and almost envy it. so wow. it's called Trembling Before G-d and you should see it. goodbye now.