Hunter S. Thompson Commits Suicide at 67.

what's going on... god

omg first qaf ensemble vid i've ever found.. and it has changed my life.. i know this isn't where i post these things but OMG OMG OMG can someone help me i am still slightly high from last night (seriously, wtf) and i think it's bringing out all of my truths, quite fascinating, and anyway this vid is so wondrous i must share it with the world. well, jessica and jenn anyway. it is to a *gulp*.. savage garden song.. called "affirmation", and at first you hate the song and then you just can't help but love the song because omg you love the queer as folk. so. here are the lyrics. here is where to find the vid. do with them what you will.

I believe the sun should never set upon an argument
I believe we place our happiness in other people's hands
I believe that junk food tastes so good because it's bad for you
I believe your parents did the best job they knew how to do
I believe that beauty magazines promote low self esteem
I believe I'm loved when I'm completely by myself alone

I believe in Karma what you give is what you get returned
I believe you can't appreciate real love 'til you've been burned
I believe the grass is no more greener on the other side
I believe you don't know what you've got until you say goodbye

I believe you can't control or choose your sexuality
I believe that trust is more important than monogamy
I believe your most attractive features are your heart and soul
I believe that family is worth more than money or gold

I believe the struggle for financial freedom is unfair
I believe the only ones who disagree are millionaires

I believe in Karma what you give is what you get returned
I believe you can't appreciate real love 'til you've been burned
I believe the grass is no more greener on the other side
I believe you don't know what you've got until you say goodbye

I believe forgiveness is the key to your unhappiness
I believe that wedded bliss negates the need to be undressed
I believe that God does not endorse TV evangelists
I believe in love surviving death into eternity

I believe in Karma what you give is what you get returned
I believe you can't appreciate real love 'til you've been burned
I believe the grass is no more greener on the other side
I believe you don't know what you've got until you say goodbye

http://www.kitzeproductions.net/qaf/vids.html

i just wanted to post something while i was experiencing this.. this is crazy. i forgot how much i reacte to this. unfortunately there are the sounds of a dog behind me and my tongue is slightly numb and i keep going in and out of reality and fantasyland, i can't complete a thought very quickly. this has taken like 4 minutes to write. shit i may start laughing. my body keeps getting numb and tingly, i'm trying to force myself to remember my former self telling me what to type here or what i should be doing right now, but again.. this is like two minutes later.. i have hardly stayed on this thought. dammit. damnit. shit i was wrong about that wasn't i? damnit. so i just made an ass out of myself to jessica, and continue to do so (this was now right after a several minute break.. wao another break has gone by.. i'm trying to concentrate on this thing but i just can't. typing about half the speed as normal.. ok i'm about to get myself into a crazy ass conversation i'm not ready to have. this is going to be such a mistake tomorrow. oh my god. here i go.

god, morrissey's new album, You Are the Quarry, is so good. who makes better music at the end of their career? this is crazy. you must go now and listen to the two songs i'm addicted to from it: You Know I Couldn't Last and Come Back to Camden, and read the lyrics for the latter while you listen to it, sooo pretty..

There is something I wanted to tell you
it’s so funny you’ll kill yourself laughing
but then I look around
and I remember that I am alone / alone / forevermore

The tile yard, all along the railings
up a discoloured dark brown staircase
here you’ll find / despair and I
calling to you with what’s left of my heart / forevermore

Drinking tea with the taste of the Thames
sullenly, on a chair on the pavement
here you’ll find / my thoughts and I
and here is the very last plea from my heart / forevermore

Where taxi drivers never stop talking
under slate-grey Victorian sky
here you’ll find / despair and I
and here I am every last inch of me’s yours / yours / forevermore

Your leg came to rest against mine
then you lounged with knees up and apart
and me and my heart
we knew / we just knew
forevermore

Where taxi-drivers never stop talking
under slate-grey Victorian sky
here you’ll find / my heart and I
and still we say “come back / come back
to Camden and / I’ll be good”