My love,
Wherever you are,
Whatever you are,
Don't lose faith.
I know it's gonna happen someday
To you.
Please wait . . .
Please wait . . .
Wait . . .
Don't lose faith.

You say that the day
Just never arrives
And it's never seemed so far away.
Still I know it's gonna happen someday
To you.
Please wait . . .
Don't lose faith

ohhh my i love morrissey now. he is like crack cocaine or something. it's crazy. i'm thinking of starting a religion based around him. check out! I Have Forgiven Jesus: !!

I was a good kid, I wouldn't do you no harm, I was a nice kid, With a nice paper route
Forgive me any pain, I may have brung to you, With God's help I know, I'll always be near to you
But Jesus hurt me, When he deserted me, but, I have forgiven you Jesus
For all the desire, You placed in me when there's nothing I can do with this desire

I was a good kid, Through hail and snow, I'd go just to moon you, I carried my heart in my hand
Do you understand, Do you understand

But Jesus hurt me, When he deserted me, but, I have forgiven you Jesus
For all of the love, You placed in me when there's no one I can turn to with this love

Monday - humiliation, Tuesday - suffocation, Wednesday - condescension, Thursday - is pathetic
By Friday life has killed me, By Friday life has killed me, Oh pretty one, Oh pretty one

Why did you give me so much desire, When there is nowhere I can go to offload this desire?
And why did you give me so much love in a loveless world, When there is no one I can turn to
To unlock all this love?
And why did you stick me in self deprecating bones and skin?, Jesus do you hate me?
Why did you stick me in self deprecating bones and skin?
Do you hate me?, Do you hate me?, Do you hate me?, Do you hate me?, Do you hate me?



ohh man! and of course Unhappy Birthday:

I've come to wish you an unhappy birthday
cuz you're evil and you lie
and if you should die
i may feel slightly sad
but i won't cry

and then he has a song called You're the One for Me, Fatty! can there be anything better than that? no. the answer is no.

alright, i'm going to sit in a chair and you're all going to line up and bop me on the head with some blunt object until i become LESS FUCKED UP. hello life drama, welcome back. how was your trip? FUCK OFF, YOU BASTARD. *collapses* (a thousand good wishes to the genuinely nice boy who never was.) i need a cigarette.

ok let's talk 2004 movies cuz francis reminded me i do that too..

best movies of 2004:
The Dreamers
Spartan
Eternal Sunshine of the Spotless Mind
Kill Bill Vol.2
Mean Girls
Ned Kelly
Harry Potter and the Prisoner of Azkaban
Connie and Carla
Fahrenheit 9/11
Before Sunset
Hero
Shaun of the Dead
I Heart Huckabees
Birth
Finding Neverland
Sideways

Favorite: Eternal Sunshine and Finding Neverland are tied (PLEASE GIVE JOHNNY AN OSCAR) but The Dreamers and Birth were really fuckin amazing too

Most Disappointing Movies of 2004 w/ explanations:
Secret Window (horrible ending)
Hidalgo (cheesy)
Troy (wtf?)
Spider-man 2 (hopes were too high and i hate mary jane and stop acting like a soap opera! am i the only one who sees how it's not as good as the first one??)
Garden State (i like it but it really sucked, cliche cliche cliche cliche, blah)
Vanity Fair (how can such a great trailor go so terribly terribly bad?)
A Home at the End of the World (reading the book first ruins everything)
The Motorcycle Diaries (good movie that you don't care about)
Alfie (wtf?)
Bridget Jones 2 (WTF?)
Lemony Snicket.. (couldn't find an audience, it wanted to appeal to kids but then it would put crass humor in there and make the plot twists so mind-numbingly simple so when compared to harry potter it's just stupid seeming, i slap its knuckles with a ruler)
The Aviator (good movie that you don't care about.. entertaining but just.. i don't care. how can scorcese do that so well? i loved cate tho. gangs of ny was way better)
A Very Long Engagement (hopes too high, wasn't as good as Amelie)
The Life Aquatic (good but his worst film, couldn't find good pacing or meaningful resolutions)
Phantom of the Opera (good but not great, i'd never seen the play or heard the music so i wasn't prepared for how campy it is.. minnie driver was good, the masquerade was great, but i'm a les mis person and it just seems shallow when compared to jean val jean pleading with god to take him instead of cosette's boy! oh jean!)
Darkness (was i surprised? i was dragged to this by a horror fan. ba-ad.)

so yeah. and what a new year this is..hm. i've started smoking. i know. did you know cloves make you feel high? well they do. hm. so new resolution is not to die of smoking-related disease.

fabulous.