i went on a night out on the town sunday, by myself, thought maybe i could catch tori amos and rufus wainwright at the tupperware theater in obt KISSIMMEE but that was sold out and too far at only an hour away. hm. so i saw two movies, zoolander, kinda funny, and then the adventures of felix, about a gay french arab guy on a quest to find his father and finds his "family" along the way.. it's nice to see gay sexuality portrayed so casually and realistically, instead of this big hurrah.. like any other sexuality. it's refreshing. it was so funny, i walked into this theater and someone yells "THERE'S ONE!" apparently i am not only the only straight person in there, i am the only female. i thought "well i guess this wasn't the best place to pick up guys". it was funny but i felt a bit on display and a little alienated and threatened.. which is funny because gay men are about the least threatening people i can imagine. kinda sad in a way that they all show up for a "gay film".. though this one did look very good, and was very good. i can hardly blame them. or maybe it's just that not many straight people showed up to it.. i don't know.

i finally finished deadeye dick, but i can hardly form an opinion because i was basically distracted the whole time by my waiter at steak n shake. first he just seemed very personable and topher grace-like.. then this strange look in his eyes when i ordered and he looked at me and said "beautiful". this guy was flirting with me. well what the heck. this happens about as often as haley's comet.. ok. i wouldn't have noticed him much if it weren't for that, but you know that the best turn on for someone is for the other person to like them. well i kinda went back to my book, i sort of figured it might be nothing. then he strikes up this conversation starting with "so what are you reading?" how classic. and we talk about books and career plans and school (he's at ucf.. hm.. art major) and my little idea for a movie about the mary kay lady and how he should move to a foreign country and earn a small living, live simply and paint in his free time instead of being a "struggling artist" - but he's not like that.. this is not a dream or anything. he's reasonably attractive, especially because of his blue eyes, but he's a little dumb.. well, just a little naive. he'd never heard of winter springs, for instance. he called himself sheltered. i believed him. he has a lot to learn, but he seems very willing to try. he seems like an innocent. so we never exchanged numbers or anything and i was too committed to finishing my book to try to make after-work plans with him.. even though he would get off work about ten minutes later and walk out the door, only a minute or two before i'd finally finish my book and walk out after him.. though he was gone. i had a little hope he might be waiting there for me but he wasn't. so now i sort of hope i run into him at school. should make for an interesting story. how bizarre this world is. when's the last time something like that happened to me? i have no idea. maybe it never did.

just tonight finished the second season of sex and the city.. what a great show. what a great season finale. i love "the way we were".

"Your girl's lovely, Hubbel"

lovemelo