oh god i'm so so so tired of seemingly smart/cool boys falling for seemingly dumb/silly girls.. when does it end? do they just end up marrying one and ending up like everyone else? can i do anything to help? i don't think i can. i think that everytime i try i'm not listened to or am accused of being judgemental. so my standards are a little higher, shouldn't everybody's? shouldn't we all want the best? i mean i see it as just as bad as falling for an alcoholic, or someone who steals, or has a tendency to become physically violent. i guess we all are just blinded constantly by little momentary things that seem appealing to us and then they turn into.. three years! and then we do it again and call it something different! jesus! when will i ever be satisfied with people's girlfriends? i know cool girls are out there, boys, don't give me that excuse - is it just a penis thing? the penis is doing all the thinking? i don't understand.. i cringe at the little word usages and giggly noises and PINK - what the hell, guys - how old are we? i understand it has its place but why in the lives of the boys i love? can i just shake them out of it? should i just give up now and become a user like everyone else? oh it wears me out.

on a severely lighter note: undeclared is a fantastic new show on fox every tuesday at 8:30 that i've been waiting for for weeks and finally got to see the premiere of tonight and i was, to put it lightly, very impressed. it's hilarious and endearing and fun and the main kid is a miniature jimmy fallon, though without hope of becoming an obsession of mine like the glorious jimmy. and the brit is sexy though i'm thinking not british unless it's some actual accent that sounds like an american acting like a brit. and rufus wainwright's father stars in it and i'm just getting into rufus.. what a small world. everyone go find and listen to the amazing rufus. and for chrissake, watch undeclared.

i finally bought the gorillaz cd and it's so so so very good - damon is a hip hop star after all! and he does it so *well*. but it's not fully hip hop.. it's so eclectic and interesting and GOOD. go buy it now.

AND (see this is what money brings) i finally picked up the pictures from my boston/vineyard trip at eckerd's and they're great, even though i got way too many of the bay on the sailboat and of me and jenn trying to fly a kite at gay head, but some are absolutely wonderful, one in particular, which looks like a postcard, from when we were making the long downhill walk from the hill at gay head (martha's vineyard) to the beach below - gay head is where jfk jr's plane went down, kids. and if i were to have my plane go down i'd want it to go down here. let me try to create a link to this wonderful picture, you can even make it your wallpaper and it fills up the whole screen like a perfectly crafted.. thing. alright nevermind i don't know how to put a link here for it.. someone email me at melo@usa.com if you know how or if you just want to see it. it'll rock your world.

i just found out this evening that i have a math exam tomorrow morning and i haven't been to class since the last exam.. oops. heh, well i did fine on the last test, i'll study for a little bit and do fine on this one. voila.

ohh i need shower and letterman and sleep and other things..

lovemelo