i've just lost two sets of somethings.......... wow
axel, to salvage some of what i responded to you in length about..ah
lol about sigur ros video reaction
i loved that brian and justin kept making out during the france video, it was like..oh, they're still doing that, well good.. (several making-out-with-brian fantasies here), what a lucky actor justin is, eh? oh before i forget, there's a lovely article in the new Advocate with brian on the cover.. that's a really interesting magazine, i might subscribe. anyway, that guy, gale something.. he's straight,(as is michael and what's his head, short guy) so sad for you but glad for me. and apparently incredibly smart and politically minded and generally fabulous.. go find it.
i don't really like joey's english professor only because i find him strangely unattractive, but he does seem genuine, and sure i'd date my english professor if those circumstances were there, it would be a fun dangerous kind of thing. sure. i was watching the jack lying next to frat boy scene with my brother and we were like "Kiss! kiss him! oooo, you looooooooooove him.." to the frat boy. so obvious. and such a bitch he turned out to be! well i bet he'll be back, calling on jack. mhm.
now the other endlessly greater and more interesting jack:
it's so easy to fall in love with him, i know. i hate that people like jack die. too much alcohol i think. but it seems so natural for something like that to happen.. like.. how would you live otherwise? i don't know.. i'm probably much more normal than these great people so i will survive, but sometimes i have my doubts, so maybe that makes it interesting. the dharma bums is my favorite book of his so far, i've only read two, and it affects you even more than on the road, it's a lot deeper, it teaches you a lot of things, you want to sit on a straw mat in the woods and meditate afterwards - it's beautiful. there is the most pure of happinesses after reading a particularly wonderful passage from one of his books.. i'd leave class after reading it and just look at the light on the trees and kind of feel like i was floating above all these people walking around me.. it's unlike most things. i'm going to read his the subterraneans next. looking forward to it.

oh how things change for worse and better and no one can stop them and you just have to feel your way back to where you want to be. but where do i want to be?

thinking about jack,
lovemelo