mm..rufus' "pretty things" is so wonderful.. somebody download these songs i'm talking about and tell me what you think of them, it's fluttering heart material.

well what's happening to me.. i want to ask will: why do you keep putting these sappy song lyrics around, who are you singing to? what dawson's creek-esque drama are you trying to stir up? he and i might move in together sometime by the end of the year. wouldn't that be interesting! yes, i thought so. will is also one of the last to see eddie izzard.. he is an izzard virgin, i want to break his cherry.

you sound like you're doing super, frank. that's so cool. but i'm pissed, i wanted to come the third week of june for "fixe prixe" week at the lovely restaurants, oh well. snow it is! ugh i might still try to come sometime this summer tho, i really really really want it so badly. i've read all through my NY for Dummies book and i am PREPARED. i have this wonderfully romantic idea of summer in new york.. lounging around central park, the free concerts, the jazz clubs in the village, the Met, warm days and breezy nights under the neon.. oh i long for it.

margaret cho is the queen of gay men, it's great. i just watched Notorious C.H.O, funny stuff. her mother impressions are the best. i miss axel, i never speak to him except when it's one of our birthdays or when we want to go to a concert together. it's summer, this should be axel time! he doesn't read this thing anymore so i'll need to call him.. i loved how juan jumped on him on the couch at alan's last year after not seeing him for forever. axel, you are loved!

and kristin. we started talking the other day online but i usually don't feel like talking to people online so i rarely do, and she's down even less. maybe this is the time for me and axel to go up there and be north carolinans. get drunk in the woods. wear flannel. i miss them.

here's what i want for my birthday: all the people i like together in one abode getting along and listening to good music, dancing even! i want kristin and axel, jenn, will, brian, mandy, george clooney, juan, whoever juan's dating, frank, rebecca, marianna, jonah fathead! (i want them in the same room to talk to them both because she always said how sweet he was and i want his take on this, i'm intrigued by him), marianna's cool friends, ewan mcgregor, bonnie, niko, rachel, kim, kelly, and all those lost high school girls and boys, jude law, nate and gary from school who i'll probably never see again unfortunately, raudebaugh because i keep thinking he's flirting with me at these parties and i kind of like it, cliff, chino, brock, mark, i know i don't know them terribly well but i enjoy their company, johnny depp.. and i guess alan could come, but he'd have to not piss me off. there's probably more. and if we could do it in our high school cafeteria to a sock hop DJ.. there are dreams.

so i saw Bubble Boy yesterday because my love for jake gyllenhaal knows no bounds.. and it's hilarious. complete shock. someone told me a long time ago it was great and i didn't believe them. when he tries to beat down his erection i nearly fell off my bed.

go download those rufus songs. downbeat: pretty things, tower of learning. upbeat: movies of myself, oh what a world, beautiful child. GO