alright axel has so far made the most comments here so i'm going to honor that with a delicious little axel story that i've never shared with anyone, even axel. (i think?) this may be a way to get more people to comment.. because i'll then try to type up a very interesting story about them.. everyone likes attention.. yes


there was O N E time in axel and i's friendship where i was in the least bit sexually attracted to him. (oh doesn't that sound interesting? ;) this has absolutely nothing to do with axel being an unattractive, unsexy, anything-negative guy, it has everything to do with the fact that there merely is no sexual chemistry between people of different sexual orientations. and that's why they're different sexual orientations kids. but there was one small moment where there was an ounce of it, in my head at least, with axel. k here we go

axel and i used to go to my church together all the time (what is it with me and church?) on wednesday nights and after the service the "hip kids", mainly the young adults, would go over to this other building for a thing called YAM (young adults ministries) which was really just different rooms to hang out in and place connect four or listen to music or talk to debate theology or whateveryouwantedtodo and the big main room was mainly where axel and i would go and sit on futons and watch cute boys and discuss life like good little teenagers. those were good times, weren't they axel?

well there was one time, one of the first times we had gone, where we were sitting, kind of laying out really, on this folded out futon (i think) on the floor and the lights were all dim and there was this music playing and people all around doing their thing (as always) and we were talking about something sexual.. i don't remember what it was, but it was more of a joke and then i had to somehow mimic a girl lying in wait on a bed for some lover or something and i made some goofy sexy pose and there was some look we gave each other and it was this bizarre moment of sexual confusion for me.. and i was like "wait a minute, i'm not attracted to this kid, he's not attracted to me, he's gay, i'm straight, ((oh wait, then you were calling yourself bi, so maybe that was the little loop hole i suddenly found)), so what the hell was that?" and then i had to go over different situations in my head of what could follow, and of course nothing did, thank God, that would've been messy. but it was definitely there for a few minutes and i'll never forget it because it was so random and short-lived and unexpected.

so there's my funny half-attraction to axel story. :) you know that must say a lot about axel's attractive elements.. if someone breaks the laws of sexuality and biology and chemistry and all that and finds a moment of attraction.. that's interesting. axel you should be studied. lol.

ok. sweet dreams ;) lovemelo