cmon people - how do i set up links for my blog? if you don't know, say "i don't know".


i hope i do not have west nile virus.. ever since i started eating more fruit my body has begun to decompose.. now my body is literally rejecting fruit.. what the hell. i try to be healthier and i start dying. i have a cold again.. i just had one last month. and now here it is again. what the hell. are you supposed to change your sheets and disinfect your toothbrush and all that after you recover from illness? i've never done that before.. maybe i should start? i don't know. i thought you were least likely to get sick right after being sick. ? i'm so not used to ever waking up in the middle of the night.. the other day i woke myself up sneezing. what the hell. now i wake up and blow my nose because YOUR NOSE WAKES YOU UP.. this is proof that one's nose literally could destroy one's life. you know, most people don't even pay attention to their nose until they get sick.. and it's like "oh, i almost forgot about you, hello there". there is a very defined misery to having a cold.. you are aware that there must be things much worse out there and yet you still want to die rather than feel This.. which i guess makes you dread what else could be waiting for you... all around good times. i hate life, i hate the world, i hate my body.. all positive thinking has flown out the window and i pray for a truck to run me over.


well that's uplifting. on a lighter note, O Brother, Where Art Thou? is a fantastic movie.. i didn't realize quite so much when i saw it in the theaters two years ago, but i get it now. it's hilarious and the music is so so so good. i shared with dad and with jordan and both laughed and loved it. it was wonderful. i can't wait to get that soundtrack. it's bluegrass/folk music/gospel from the South in the 1930's.. and as much as i'd hate to be in that area at that time, when the ku klux klan was actually running every major town, and the people i'm sure would drive me nuts and i would not be able to relate to them one bit.. except for their music. and that's what's so great, it's as if here are these unlikable people, for the most part, but their music is this little lifeboat that reminds me that they're still human beings, they're still capable of all the love and pain and joy and heartache as anyone.. and here is their greatest representative. i mean, the leader of the kkk sang this beautiful song, "O Death", and for a minute there, i loved him just a little. man that's so great. the people who put together the soundtrack had to track down one of the writers of one of the songs featured, who was very old and living in a shack in the mountains of west virginia or somewhere, and out of the blue they handed him a check for $28,000.. how awesome is that?

raindrops on roses and whiskers on kittens?