good morning...afternoon.. i'm going to have to strain myself to keep this blog from turning into a romance novel.. but not yet. i'll report about other things in life some other time. i've had dreams about that boy for like four days in a row now.. this being the morning...afternoon after we closed together you'd think i'd be all swoony but it was a mixed night so i'm sort of..balanced over here. 5-close. we didn't talk for the longest time, he was quiet, there were a lot of people to get thru. i misread him and created this whole horrible situation in my head where someone told him i liked him and now he was avoiding me.. i completely convinced myself of this and would curse the ceiling whenever i walked back to get a game from a drawer or something. i'd look over sadly at him whenever he wasn't looking. yea, it was dramatic and when i realized later that he was really just stressed about the store being so busy on a wednesday night i realized how vulnerable i was letting myself be and quit it.. i had to stop letting so much of myself go so i smartened up, stopped thinking about him and started having fun with customers. i guess me relaxing relaxed him a little and we started talking more. we talked about his website (austin-burns.com) and about acoustic boy rock and why he didn't like the rules of attraction and i became completely resolved in the fact that it wasn't me at all that was bothering him. we got everyone out, ordered pizza, i put on jeff buckley for him even tho he owns grace, but he says he only listenened to it like once. so we listened to sex music while busily finishing returns. it wasn't sexy tho, we were too busy, it was just kind of interesting. the best parts of the night were when he finally stopped to talk and he made me laugh or i made him laugh and he has this great.. get ready for this jenn.. sunshine smile. ; ) he lights up rooms. he is also one who burps loudly like a kid and sneezes with that sound cartoon characters make when they fall off cliffs... ok enough. i'll be getting more weekday nights with him probably and after hurricane pandaemonium it won't be as busy and all will be relaxed and lovely.. you just wait.