ok, here's what's great:

i had to wake up at 6:30 to start training at the tuscawilla vet which was stressful and tiring and then i had to walk half a mile to blockbuster and interview for a job there because it looks as if i have a few hours left of free time in the week (the car was picked up and then died again and they couldn't figure it out again and now we have it again but i can't take it to school tomorrow because it could die again so it just looms over us like that) and then i had to be a little late for lake howell vet job because eileen is always always late, i hate depending on other people, they are not at all enslaved by my priorities, and then i've done enough walking and standing but no i need to do a bunch more and get dog poo on me and ok so i get to play with dogs and i don't really mind any of it that much, but it's a LOT, remember 6:30, 11 hour work day, it's a LOT. so then i'm waiting for my other looney, late ride home at about 6:15 and i feel dirty and my feet ache and then i suddenly remember who i completely forgot about all day: damien rice. and i smile, and i know that i get to come home to all these new songs i downloaded overnight and i hum delicate to myself and everything's fine. so here i am listening to more. i've fiiiinally gotten the blower's daughter so i can listen to that again and forever.. i've gotten all of O, and also covers of still haven't found what i'm looking for and creep - and toffee and lonelily and baby sister and weatherman and woman like a man and be my husband and moody monday, tho i'm not entirely sure that's him - about half the "other songs" i downloaded were other people.. and kazaa has given this all to me, i have no idea what's up with bit torrent, i don't have time for that crap, kazaa can give me immediate gratification right now and that's all that matters.. now let's talk again about damien rice. the "other songs" are nice, but they don't have the wonderful sweeping beauty of the O stuff.. ooohhh my it's so good, i'm most partial to delicate, the blower's daughter, cannonball, older chests, AMIE - god i love AMIE, cheers darlin, cold water, i remember, prague.. ohh my oh my... i love this, the beginning of the relationship.. he's all over the U.S. this month, may dates yet to be announced, he may be coming soon... he's like jeff AND jonah.. he could complete my holy trinity.. wish his name started with a "j", but still. i feel like i'm getting another chance with jeff, like if he'd lived and i could've followed him, he's not better than jeff, but it's like a reincarnation of sorts. this is wonderful.