GASP - don't speak about it please.. i have to wait forever.. well maybe til tomorrow ; ) I CAN NOT WAIT. meanwhile i've been reading up on bertolucci, he's an interesting fella. i rented Last Tango in Paris with Brando to see all the X-rated sex scenes and it is quite scandalous but the movie itself was a huge bore.. one of those movies that normal people make fun of for being "artsy", i sympathize with normal people, i do. so blah on that. but i really want to see The Last Emperor now.. 9 oscars including best picture, hm..

there are now like 235621 movies out i want desperately to see plus about 25398710537 more in the video store that i've been fasting from due to expenses of the film festival. theatre: the dreamers, spartan, touching the void, secret window, hidalgo, the fog of war; video: wallstreet, raising victor vargas, shattered glass, gangster #1 (paul bettany, yum), suicide kings, 2 days in the valley, may, bonnie and clyde, to kill a mockingbird, buffalo 66, bird, failsafe (george clooney version), death and the maiden, bronco billy, awakenings, high art, dancer in the dark. some obviously have seen before but i just want to see them again lately. dancer in the dark has been weighing on me for a while. lars von trier, the director, is apparently crazy and his film dogville with a million stars (including paul bettany) and no set is playing as i type this at the festival but was sold out and i figure it'll come around to enzian soon enough so i shouldn't spend $9 on it. but now the festival is over. at least for me. i went to the midnight shorts last night and they were kind of disappointing outside of a couple gems, including How to Cope with Death, a 3 minute animated pic where a seemingly comatose old lady kicks death's ass matrix style, hilarious. very little sex this year, which the opening announcer apologized for which was funny.

however the little sex last night was more than made up for by the lotta sex friday night in Young Adam, ewan's ummm.. like 5th naked movie. helloooo ewan penis. it's lovely, i feel like it's an old friend. ewan has sex with ev ry one in this one. which is a little ridiculous after a while. but man i think this may be his sexiest movie yet.. he looks damn good here. i haven't seen him look this good since trainspotting probably. tho eyeliner did slay me in velvet goldmine - the lighting in this movie is perfect for him. stunning. he doesn't have a whole lot of dialogue so we're mainly just lingering on his face as he smokes or has an orgasm, which is great. he has the most sex with a very under-sexed tilda swinton and all i keep thinking is these are real people performing these sex simulations and THAT ALONE makes tilda possibly the most fortunate woman in the world.. my god.. see they can be humping but you know they have little cloths on beneath the sheets or something so nothing's actually happening but there's this one moment when he's kissing and sucking on her breasts and yknow.. you can't fake that, that actually has to happen. and possibly many many times to get the right take. jesus. when i die i want to come back as tilda swinton.

ahem