happy thanksgiving. mine's been good, all food, including large turkey, stuffing, green bean casserole, sweet potatoes w/ marshmellows, cranberry sauce and rolls, came out very nicely. surprisingly easy. then we watched donnie darko and jordan absolutely loved it ("I AM Donnie!"). now we're at hadaways for dessert.

saw solaris yesterday afternoon - what a haunting and beautiful movie. wonderful music. so great, interesting, sad, sexy, you feel what you're supposed to feel. five stars, definitely. i want to buy it maybe. there was a 1972 russian version that was an hour longer and i hear just a big piece of communist propaganda (hurray), so i want to see it. george, by golly, is a Real actor, he did so great. the chick's eyes get freaky at times, they're so big. let me tell you about the brilliance that is george clooney's ass - i couldn't believe how perfect it was. this is a guy in his mid-40's, he doesn't need to have a perfect ass... it was like a 20 yr old gay guy's ass. really. he is a lovely lovely naked man. "and visions of clooney danced in her head", as for later that night.. yes. i would accept that man's invitation to dinner. i am half his age, but i would overlook that. i'd say, george, you're short, but i can overlook your shortness if you can overlook my general physical unattractiveness. and he'd say, oh, melody, you're beautiful. and i'd say, yes, george, and you're tall, let's go. match made in heaven. well i guess he's my new obsession.. there hasn't been one in a while, that's funny.. he's been there all along.

dad is getting out monday or tuesday, we're accepting barbara's offer, which makes me sad, but it seems to be the only way. i'm going to give her my pell grant money and work for free for a couple of months and hopefully dad can go back to driving the cab and make enough for us to get by for a while.. he hurt his knee in there, it's just a overall bad environment, no work can be done through that place, it's ricockulous. i have no idea when i'll be able to get a car.. this all takes hopeless amounts of time. mom says she's getting jordan a computer for christmas, with our $5000, so that's one problem that'll be better. dad gets to go with us to tulsa now for christmas, i think, unless he has to work a bunch to make up for the week off.. i don't know - what a vacation. i have no idea why patti won't pay this money for us. she says "$5000 is a lot of money". yes, it is. and we of all people should know that. but it wouldn't be nearly so crippling for you, so why not just do this out of the kindness of your heart? i don't understand people sometimes.. the generous people don't have money - or maybe they're just saying they'd pay because they're not in the position to, i don't know. who cares, he's getting out, things will go back to normal, we were just starting to get on our feet, and now we've had our inevitable set back, it's all a pendulum, you know? whatever - life goes on.