writer's block... i have writer's block... i've been sitting here in front of this devil at school, it's dark now.. it's been 45 minutes or so and i've only done the title page... now i'm wasting more time rambling here.. i've changed computers once. i've taken many sips of water. i've skimmed over my nude Zeus (or Poseidon) and my nude David (sexy) and my Francios de la Sarra being eaten by frogs and worms (frogs?).. and i have to discuss how each represent the a.Greek b.Medieval Christian c.Renaissance views of the human body.. this is not terribly hard. then he asks us to pick representatives of two groups and have them both assess each view.. like liberal/conservative, male/female, adult/child, what have you.. that's the part i don't like. i don't want to make up someone's opinion.. i'm so tired of creative writing (which i don't even do anymore, but i've somehow grown against it for the creative pressures it gives you) i want only nonfiction, research, mostly objective writing.. i like slipping in little asides here and there, a little objectivity is ok.. but i'm so tired of creating people. who am i to create people?

the movie with nick cage that i told you about, alan, is called Adaptation, not Adaption.. i'm a moron. i don't even think adaption is a word. in fact, i just checked, it's not. like "nucular". now you look at it and say "of course that's not a word", but you all say it, dammit.. it comes out of mouths everyday. "nucular war". "nucular family". "nuclear" is the only word here. that's it. it's not either/or, they're not synonyms. one just isn't a word.

i suddenly smell my grandmother.

this guy in the row in front of me is looking at sexy pictures of girls, not porn, but sexy pictures.. i'd never feel comfortable enough to do that in a public place like this. i admire his gusto.

under pressure.. so that's the song from adapTAtion.. i love it. and it has that copied vanilla ice riff, so i'm wondering if that's the police song (is it the police?) but it doesn't sound like sting.. or gordy... my calves are cold. i'm wearing sweat pants (fancy ones from that devil place) and a sweat shirt ($3 from a consignment shop, too cool) and socks with sandals. that's right. i'm very comfortable, but still a little cold.. it's chilly outside. nice.

alright i apparently have to go over paper thoughts here:
zeus is.. he is athletic, he is ideal warrior as beauty, fixed position, about to throw spear (or lightning bolt?) so that muscles are tensed in just the right way.. very muscular, arms way too long, hair and beard and pubic hair in perfect parallel wavy lines, stomach in symmetrical trapezoids.. what is a trapezoid again? oh yes. geometric, symmetrical, math, ratios, rational beauty.. god as man..warrior as beauty.. ok
sarra..represents Pope Innocent III's scary sermons on horrible human condition, --> plague > body as worm food, frogs as creepy creatures of that time..body as temple of god and thus is brought up on judgment day, but put thru hell during life and left to deal with physicality of death, memento mori, remembering death to prepare for inevitable..body as representing earth's vileness and corruption.. lead to conservative lifestyles..blah blah
david....alberti's "virtu" - skill, talent, fortitude, ingenuity, and the ability to determine one's destiny. strong and defined muscles, tight, veins showing, head and hands way too large, sturdy, ousting of proportion, featured, contrast with donatello's weak, featureless, girlish david..fearless, brooding, heroic proportions.. legs too short to seem in better proportion as people look up at him?

oh my god i've wasted so much time. i'm not really pressed for time, but i really wanted to be out of here by 8 or so.. maybe i still can. it's only 6:45. i bought the missy elliot cd b/c i love work it so much (she is so cool) but the rest is just bland, and she talks too much and now i feel like she's stupid.. but she has that occassional really great song and video, the song is almost half the video.. very cool. my god she's lost a lot weight, that's weird. and that today show guy too.. what's going on?

i love jerry seinfeld. i really need a car. what happened to time?