there are these silly silly girls in my book club in english.. i did not want to be in their group, but i was anyway, and it's led by a sorority girl, who i could've liked..she started talking about 1984 and how much she liked it.. but no, she and the other girls do this: this book we read about the future and ethnography and the main girl sutty and her past girlfriend pao and current lover-type-thing (some other woman) - the girls i figure would be cool about it, even if it is initially shocking - it's one thing to go "wait.." and reread to make sure you have it right, but they actually discussed: "and she's gay! i was like..wait a minute.. she's gay! omigosh. that's so crazy". what year is it? and later when she has casual sex with the second girl they were like "and then it's like.. suddenly they're having sex! lol! and it's with a girl!" wtf people are so stupid. see i guess i've been blind to this because i'm so used to people who see clearly thru this stuff and i surround myself with those types of people, and when i step out into the real world i awake to find that oh, there are mostly stupid people like this. i really Really wanted to say something, like "cmon girls, get over it, it's 2002, not that big of a deal", but i couldn't.. i just sunk down, smiled grimly. ugh it's so disgusting out there.

ok i'm being a little hard.. these girls expose themselves to different things than i do.. or should i say do not expose. i've watched Real Sex a thousand times and all these other sexually explicit shows/movies and listen to certain kinds of talk radio and read certain kinds of books.. ok, i am fully exposed. i am used to all things sex.. i'm fine and open minded and think it's a lovely way of expressing ourselves without hurting other people (usually). not everyone has been properly exposed. i should not pass judgement.


monsoon wedding is now available for rent and i want you all to go rent it, i've rented it now and i'm so looking forward to watching it again. i wanted to see it again when it was in the theatres.. it has the greatest music and dancing, i got the soundtrack. indian culture is really interesting. it's about an arranged marriage, but it's a different take on the topic because the two kids end up in love and it's like someone finally saying, just because it's tradition, doesn't mean we need to throw it out the window, doesn't mean it's bad, doesn't mean it doesn't work. it works for some people just fine. it's sad when people are forced into arranged marriages, but at the same time, there are so many good intentions floating around, it's hard to place blame. so it's a wonderfully rich happy exciting movie with lovely people, lovely love, lovely music/dancing. go rent it.