i'm about to leave to buy dinner somewhere..tempted to go to a sit down restaurant type place, there's a bennigan's near here, i've never been there... it would be too much money i'm sure.. damn panera and their hours - closing at fucking 8 on sundays. wtf is that. i bought an aphex twin cd today. note, aphex twin, not apex theory. can we get rid of all the theories? i've been seeing that AT song on M2 - window licker, such an awesome song, video, and song/video collaberation - and then there's that little kids running around evil video with the monster guy screaming at the old woman that's one of theirs, from long long ago, that's still the freakiest video i've ever seen. i can't get that face out of my head. try to catch the window licker video, the guy's dancing is cooler than MJ

so i started my "therapy", i talked at this woman, i hesitate to call her that, she is more of a girl. i liked the fact that she was 29 when i heard about her, but now i realize that was very very wrong. she is like an older peer. a typical female student. i realized then that i need to talk to someone Wise. she is not Wise. i'm taking a test to determine if i have any mood or personality disorders. yippity doo dah.

i saw Y Tu Mama Tambien friday night. it's good. there is a very excellent moment where the two boys kiss each other for the first time, in their excitement about starting this threesome with this older woman they've taken on a road trip to an imaginary beach. it's a funny moment.. it takes a while, it's a climactic moment. i wanted to say loudly "hell yeah", but i would've been drowned out by the many people around me saying "eww" and recoiling. and then when i left the theatre i saw this gay couple sitting together in the front, who looked practically like the same person - both slightly muscular and blonde - and i wanted to say something to them like "how do you stand it?" but i didn't. and i walked out and past them again at the bathrooms, and then at my car i pulled out to see they'd been behind me and were just getting in their car. i turned around one last time and saw that they were kissing in the car - the second they'd shut the door. it was like.. "finally". it was a moment.

i have to go eat now.